My Heart is Heavy

God is working so much on my heart lately.  It is just crazy.  And I don't wan this ride to end.
Now that the 24th has come and gone, I have now been praying for next month's sermon (I can't imagine preaching every week yet).  And I originally planned talking about true love, and how we think lust is love.  It being February I humanly thought it would be the perfect sermon because of Valentine's day.  But of course, my ways are lower than His ways :)  As I have been praying, my heart has been broken.  Even before this week, I just have found myself crying at my bed to God asking why!
What has hurt me the most lately, is our hypocrisy/lukewarmness.  We just do not match the Bible! We do not look anything like the New Testament church and it makes me sick! Literally I have been so down because I see leaders not understanding that its about living for Him.  It is not just about serving and making a show.  I believe that serving comes through our love and walk with God.  But we are skipping that first step!!! So in turn, our service produce human results.
We are not supposed to produce things out of our nature!! We are supposed to be nothing! HE IS EVERYTHING! He is the one that produces that crazy, indescribable awakening.
We are supposed to look different! It should be OBVIOUS who the Christian's are! Shouldn't it?  Yet today, we search and search and search to see who the Christians are.  And if they show a little bit of godliness, a little bit of the fruit of the Spirit we praise them as so holy!
My heart is that we no longer compare our church, our walk, our christianity with others around us.  Let's compare it to the Word! Because we sure aren't matching the criteria!

I will expand on this further, but this has weighed so heavily on my heart lately. 
Please, pastors and believers, pray for this sermon that it not only shakes non-believers but believers as well..

God. We need revival