This week has been a very rough week for me. There has been a lot of persecution and discouragement. It seems like nothing has really gone my way, and I feel like I have been removed from importancy. I say that because I feel like I have not accomplished a thing. I felt like the Lord told me to stop playing football... But did I make my decision based off emotion and not God's guidance? If so, I am paying for it now and I am miserable and feel like a lazy individual. I stopped playing thinking it is a chance to do more for the ministry... This week I think is my most futile week in the standards of sharing the Gospel.

But then I have another theory about this week. ( I wish I knew which one was correct). And I realized that maybe I did make the choice that God wanted me to make. Maybe the Devil is working overtime to make me feel like I am a failure, because now I can do even more for the kingdom. The devil is trying to make me discouraged and get me down.

I do wish I knew which one was correct because both seem valid to me. I am just very incontent with my life right now and I am trying to figure out a way to change that. Reader, please pray for me. I just need wisdom and God's peace.

O Lord, Please use me in any way possible!!! Amen.